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Helping April 11, 2010

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Helping

I stumbled across this on xkcd. And I feel that it powerfully affects me.

Quoting from “Tenth Speed Writer on the xkcd forums:

An older friend of mine was was talking with me about this the other day. Someone willing to go so far to take their own life, and do it for their own reasons, is beyond your help. All you can do is go beyond them to save their life; you can’t give them happiness.

Likewise, though… Someone who seeks suicide as a way to garner attention is either spoiled on it, or doesn’t know any better and is desperate for affection. It’s the same problem, though; they don’t want to find their own joy. If you give it to them, well… the “give a man a fish” proverb comes into play.

But I think I disagree as I did when someone told me 3 years ago. If you care enough about the person to want to save their life, and want to be friends with them, certainly that would help. If you become friends with them, and have fun together, and share the tough times as well as the good, certainly they can change their minds. You can’t “give” someone happiness, but you can give something that can create. Surely if you reach out a little, they would also reach out a little back.

10/04/2010 April 10, 2010

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Dengke has jealousy issues and needs to get over them already! :O

Geek comics :) April 10, 2010

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So sometimes I get really tired or bored so I geek and read comics from xkcd.com

They’re hilarious if you’re geek enough to understand them.

Here’s one that put’s my heart at ease.

Dating Pools (click to read the comic)

Good to know my chances are still increasing 🙂

Oh, and according to the rule it looks like I shouldn’t be dating girls under 18, and I’d have to be 28 to date phuong’s sister. lol just kidding.

9/04/2010 April 9, 2010

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So dad accused me of playing games on the net again when I wasn’t. So I stormed out of the house to buy lunch instead of eating food that he was going to cook. My hair was all frizzy and in a mess from my shower, and the clothes that I wore were awful: an old white v-neck shirt that sat funny, a 3 year old faded zip-up hoody, tracksuit pants that I’ve had since year 12 that are still two sizes too big for me, and a pair of horribly patterned slip-on shoes that were, however, the most comfortable things ever.

The point of me telling you all this? It felt so good being able to walk out of the house without the need to bother with my appearances. And the girl at subway was still nice to me.

I even had a chance to savor the comfort of the footpath under my feet, and the slight tingle of the sun on my skin as I walked around.

Then I ended up going to safeway and buying a 6 pack of V before heading home.

Fun stuffs.

In memory of Kristy April 7, 2010

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While procrastinating from study I joined in with my brother who was watching the sponge bob movie next to me. As the yellow sponge talked, state of melancholy drifted on to me and a memory forgotten drew itself into the front of my mind. Kristy. Kristy had liked sponge bob.

Kristy was a friend that had passed away 3 years ago. She was not a close friend, because we barely had a chance to hang out, but she was a very like-able one. I liked her, that was for sure. She was always so friendly, and tried hard to talk to you. Like you were important to her.  Maybe every single one of us (her friends) truly were. We would talk about all sorts of nonsense as adolescents: guys, girls, that kind of stuff. And it was fun and exciting getting to know her. I think we could have become good friends. But we never had the chance.

Kristy commited suicide early one morning in July 2007, she walked in front of a running train at Ringwood station.

She had been suffering from depression, and no one knew the true depth of it until it was too late. (more…)

Nara Lights August 18, 2009

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An old friend of mine, Albert, went on a quick trip to Japan in the past few weeks, a short interlude to his business life. (He is certainly on his way to being a CEO, one of the smartest and most socially adept guys I’ve known.)

He uploaded photos from the trip onto facebook, and tagged me in this photo:

smile! nara night lights

It was a picture from the Nara night lights when he was there. He said it was because I was always smiling every time he saw me.

The photo made me smile.

Sunlight through the windows August 13, 2009

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I woke up today, surprisingly early at 8.45. The sake I had drunk last night made me sleep like a log and I wasn’t tired at all.

I walked into the living room, and the sunlight shone through the windows making the day seem so warm.

I looked outside and up at the sky, it was so clear and so blue.

Back inside I went to grab brekkie and saw a picture my brother drew.

It was a person, under a rainbow. Drawn with a rainbow pencil.

Life was so simple when we were kids.

I smiled.

The day was beautiful, and my world was all good.

Things I want to do. August 12, 2009

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I think I need to write more and read more. I want to rewrite stories I made back in year 12 english. I want to read more and visit more worlds. They are things I should do but that I keep putting off. Because I say there’s no time. Perhaps I should start making time for things.

Let’s drink sake August 12, 2009

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I realize I have no close friends, and I think of this as I open my last can of sake I’d saved up from Japan.

I feel a bit down, so I think I should drink sake. Sake makes things better, sake brings me back to Japan.

I savored the drink for a minute, and let the cool liquid flow down my throat and warm me up. It was nice at the start, but now, halfway through the 180ml can,  it’s getting all bitter. I didn’t expect to drink so much as I have already. I guess I might as well drink the rest. I’m feeling the effects already though: I feel a little wobbly, and my eyes feel funny – but then again, maybe that’s because of my lack of sleep. If it is the alcohol though, then I’m pretty weak – it’s only 15% alcohol after all.

I continue to drink, 3/4 of the way down. (more…)

Blurry Photos July 3, 2009

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It’s been over a month since Aya’s grandarents sent us the photos from back in Japan, so tonight I was looking through some that I could print off and send to them as well.

In the folder where I rarely looked, were the photos that brought back a rush of memories and feelings.  As if by time warp, the starry night swirled, and I was transported back to the places that I’ve been, breathing in the atmosphere that I’ve seen.

And I was back. In front of the Yaki-pan nightstall at Asakusa Tera. Bright lights dazzled my eyes. I blinked, slightly disorientated.

Asakusa Night Stalls

I snapped this photo of the night restaurants as we left the food stall area, knowing it'd become I good memory.

In my hands were a packet of the Yaki-pan (which is what I call it now, since I’m not even sure of it’s actual name). At the time I think we bough it, half because we thought the girl working at the stall was cute. (more…)